Keep on keepin' on, even if it breaks your heart.

 

        To every woman that has ever experienced pregnancy, infant, or child loss, my heart goes out to you. The pain we feel, nobody can quite understand unless they have experienced what we have. It all starts when you notice you have missed your period, and you don't feel too great.... You head to the store and buy one of those pink boxes... You pee on that stick, set it down somewhere and step away for a minute. Anxiously waiting to see what it will say, you pick it up and BOOM those two lines are there as bold as ever. At first, you might be shocked but the happiness that takes over your entire body is stronger than any other happiness you have ever felt in your entire life. You take another test, and another and another because you don't think this is real, you're PREGNANT. Life has started to form inside of your own body. The thought alone is beautiful. You then share the news with your spouse, or that special someone. I'm sure they're just as shocked as you at first, maybe even more... but happiness takes over their body as well. Then, you have to make an appointment with your doctor to "confirm" your pregnancy, because 7 at home tests just "isn't" enough, right? Appointment day rolls around, and you're as happy as ever and even a little nervous. The nurse calls your name, they ask you a few questions and have you pee in a cup... A few minutes later, the doctor comes back in and says "you're pregnant!" and all of a sudden, its really real. Then there is more questions and blood work to make sure everything is okay. They send you home on your merry way, you leave smiling ear to ear. The thought of everything that is about to happen, the way your life is about to change, it is all very exciting. From that very moment of finding out you are pregnant, you are bonded with the little life that is growing inside of you.
   Now imagine one day, waking up and that happiness.. that little life you are growing, is gone. Just like that. in the blink of eye, worst of all there's no real answer as to why this happened... Imagine that. The pain that takes over your entire body, mind and soul is unbearable.

    Why this ever has to happen to anybody, I will never understand. No loss is too small, they all hurt... whether you carried full term, a few weeks, delivered and lost as an infant, or a child of any age. A loss is a loss.

I just want you all to know that you're not alone. 1 in 4 pregnancies will end in miscarriage. Talk about it, and never give up. Talk, even when you feel nobody is listening. Always keep trying, you'll cry along the way... but the longer the wait, the sweeter the blessing. To all of you ladies out there who are trying and nothing seems to be working, keep faith. Tell yourself that you will be pregnant one day, you will have a beautiful, healthy baby one day. Something as precious as a baby, a being that you and your partner make, someone that grows from within yourself is worth trying for, forever. As long as it takes.


You are not alone, your angel baby lives within you. In your heart, and in your mind. You carry them wherever you go.